looking back

Why am I so bad at keeping promises to myself?
I feel like such a quitter.
I swear there is not one thing that I've started and finished  it all the way.
I started with piano lessons, then quit.
Played soccer for a year, and quit.
Did track my Junior year and quit half way.
Told myself that i'd never do "this and that" and ended up doing it.
and many more things....

Like... what's wrong with me?
Can someone slap me, hard.[[right now!?]]

I hate that about myself!
I either quit, or if I do keep going I don't give my all.
If there was one thing that I could change about myself in a snap of a finger, that would definitely be it!
I know that I could change, but it's hard; It doesn't just happen from night to day. Obviously.

It honestly sucks to look back and think about how many things I could have accomplished in my life.
It's pretty depressing at times.

Thank goodness for that ^^^

Favorite Girl - The Icarus

This song has been on replay for the past couple of days. all day errry day.Its one of my favorites now. 

love love love it! 

Everyone go listen to it. NOW!

I don't mind it.

I've been so busy lately. busy enough that i don't even really have time to blog.
School is slowly taking over my life, and to be honest I don't even mind it.
One thing that I have been able to learn about myself is that I actually enjoy school!
Call me crazy, but learning is bomb.
Getting A's is the best feeling. {got 93% on my political science midterm and 95% on my math. Can I get a halllaaaa}
Also, i'm actually pretty good at math. I haven'tgot less than a 90% on a test in the past two years of college, and I get the material pretty well. 
Like WHO AM I? will someone tell me? cause I don't even know anymore. 
If any of my close friends read this post they'd be like "say whaaa. Karen shut up, you're kidding right? hahah"
I even chose school over Vegas! WHO DOES THAT?? no one, but me. That's my guess.
I can't stand the thought of missing school, missing out on the material that it's going to be taught,it drives me NUTS!

I like this 'new self' that I have become, or am still becoming.
I don't mind it, not one bit!

Now, i'm not all of a sedan this big nerd, nor am I this super smart chick, nope. 
I've always cared about my grades, school attendance etc. I've just never really done anything about it, except for now.
I have finally been able to manage what I do with my time. That's something I could NOT do.
I really am maturing. 
I'm taking all of this as part of growing up; I mean it must be!

At least later on, I'll be able to look back and see how well I did in college, and be proud of myself. 
That's a good thing right?

DUH!

as of late

I have been such a bad blogger, i'm sorry you guys.
Won't happen ever again, maybe..
Les hope.

Before I start on this post, I'd like to give a S/O to LIFE for treating me so well lately.
I could not be more greatful for evertyhing that has been going on.
I've been so happy, and feeling so good. at all time, basically.
Surprinsily
Why do I say that, you ask? because I feel like things never really go MY way. It's always what others want, how they want..
But not this time.

Now, I'm not saying that things are neceseraly only going my way, I'm not that selfish, or selfish at all.
But everything just seems to be happening really smoothly and at the perfect times. so therefore, I'm really happy about that!!

Valenine's day

 {dinner with the girls}

 G-Eazy 2/27/13

 {one of the best concerts i'e been to}

Ready to kidnap Karla

Lake visits

Caught this mofo for din-din

{jk, i didnt eat it, its very much alive}

Letters from this handsome missionary

 {they always make my days better, miss him}

Partyyy time

Nick and I

 {lunch dates with him are the best. love this kid}

The weather>>>

 {its been pretty warm lately and I LOVE it}

Snapchatsss

{jon doe, no one can make me laugh more than this kid right here.}

For kicks and giggles

{this made me all awe}

Not to mention that tomorrow is the beginning of spring break && i'm going to St. Geezy for Macklemore with the girls on the weekend.. can life get any better right now?! 

well, I hope everyone has a fantastic spring breal; don't get too crunk or do whatever ;)

Future sister Cavalcante? You betcha

Guess who gets to start on their mission papers today!!
Ding ding, you got it right.  THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE!

I've been waiting for this day for months now. And the day has finally arrived.

Words can not explain how happy I am, I can't even imagine how its gonna feel like to have my mission call in my hands, let alone Leave on my mission.

I so happy for the decision I've made, I know it's the right one. 

I LOVE this Gospel.

goals

Starting today, everyday i'm going to:

READ/STUDY THE SCRIPTURES

&&

WORK OUT

{I already did both of these things today, and I feel SO good}

It's not the first time I've made these goals. In fact i'm sure that every year those are my goals, but do I ever fall through with it? 
Nope, no I don't.

BUT THIS TIME IT'S GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. 

I'm exited to feel closer to my Heavenly Father by reading the scriptures and studying them. I learn something new every time without a fail.
Also I love the feeling of working out, so why not get myself to do it? annnnd who doesn't wanna get in shape, I know I do. I need to.

so.these are my goals.starting.Today.

the{good}times

MEMORIES:plural of mem·o·ry (Noun)

1. A person's power to remember things

2.The power of the mind to remember things

There are two types of memories.

• The {good} ones. The kind you wish to go back and relive'em. and
• The {bad} ones. The kind you're glad that they're just memories. Even though it sucks to have them in back of your head, constantly reminding you of those times you wish to erase.

But in this post I wanna talk about the good memories. {why think about the bad ones. am I right? right.}

One of the reasons why I love to keep a journal, and a blog is because I can always go back, whenever I want and read about old times. Replay those good memories over and over in my head.

The best is when I re-read something I had forgotten about, and am reminded of it. 

I love the smile, the laugh and sometimes even tears of joys that it bring me.

I love being able to have the power to remember things

To have MEMORIES.

Like:

-The one time when my grandma had just pasted away, and two of my best friends {Netto and Lucas} came over, brought me a gift and spent the rest of the night with me cheering me up.

-The one time I won the 'Principal's Award'on 8th grade year. haha.

-When I had my first kiss.

-When me and laura tried sneaking out during a sleepover, out of our leaders house. {which we totally made it. I also peed my pants from laughing so hard. hahahaha. but we don't pay attention to that}

-When I went bowling with Taylor and he spun me five times before I bowled for him and instead of messing up his game I ended up getting him a STRIKE {can you believe it? yeah me either. I was pissed haha}

-All the bro nights I have with MY BROS :) {#chicksssss}

-Lake Powell trip with Laura, Sara, Moyra, Kasey and Cody.

-When me and Flo Bo De. hung out with Nick C. and McKay and we all, yeah.. member that? {hint hint,'dinosaur picture'..hahah}

-Winning an Ipad on a Key’s to success contest at school, my junior year.

-Two months ago, today one of the nicest, sweetest guys I ever met kissed me.

-Girls camp {I had the best girls’ camps} 

-Hiking Timp. {not so sure if that's a goood memorie more like painful..}

…and many, many more. I can’t list them all, or else this post would be going on for FOREVER.

But are you catching my drift?

Memories are great you guys.

I’m thankful for them. I really am.

Let many more{good}memories be created as my life goes on.